tainted Love

- April 21 -

- April 13 -

i swear that you don’t have to go, i thought we could wait for the fireworks i thought we could wait for the snow . . i thought i could live in your arms and spend every moment i had with you, stay up all night with the stars confess all the faith that i had in you

i let you in

- April 12 -

i loved you since day ONE. i told you my dreams, my fears, my insecurities, my crazy abstract stories, my fantasies … i let you into my stupid life & this is what i get ?

I’m sorry, but while you were busy being “stupid” and “immature” and “confused” i knew exactly what i wanted and you broke my heart.

i thought i was special ! i really fucking thought you were like on the verge of death last summer when we broke up, since you made it seem that way. But nooo, apparently you were just fine without me, crawling back to your stupid fucking ex & that other bitch even when i loved you more than they ever will.

shady nigga.

fuck this. fuck everything. i need to get away.

- March 27 -

I HATE THE FACT THAT

- March 21 -

i have so many freakin trust issues. i know i’m wrong and sometimes i can be a little hard to deal with, but lately my boyfriend doesn’t even try .. If i’m mad or upset & i try to talk to him he’ll just get mad or get super loud with me & completely cut off the communication. I feel like I can’t talk to him about things anymore :( like things are changing and I don’t want them to. Now we fight like everyday & i honestly did not expect us to be like this.

Maybe I should just let it be :’(

is it worth it ? That decision, cause’ hearts break and I ain’t tryna be in that collision

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- March 5 -

i wish i had true friends & people who actually cared about me. i’m freakin depressedddd.

fucking hate that ugly bitchhhh .

I need a change.

- March 2 -

Okay so I’m thinking maybe if I actually type this out, it’ll be more clear to me. I’m smart, school is important to me and yes I have ambition, but quite honestly I am just TOO LAZY! I’m the type of person that will not move from my comfort zone unless absolutely forced to. My unfulfilled new years resolution this year was to be more RESPONSIBLE and INDEPENDENT. And the failure to follow up with this resolution simply confirmed that I am a hopeless case. I really need to stop being lazy & comfortable and just do what I gotta do. So I’m going to make a list of exactly what has to be done asappp!

—Get my damn permit/license already ! I can’t rock my school i.d. any longer, lol.

—Find a new job! I’m freakin determined.

—Start really thinking about a potential major.

—Throw away the unnecessary clutter in my room i.e. papers and past schoolwork.

—Step up my cooking game. My boyfriend introduced me to this & I’m slowly learning :)

—SAVE MONEY!